Interview with Emilie Autumn

Emilie Autumn talks with Eve’s Scene about disorders, addiction, her new album and how she came to be a full package entertainer talented in music, theater and so much more. emilieautumnpic EveScene: I’m happy to be here to be able to come to your show and meet you. Emilie: Thank you. I’m happy to meet you. EveScene: I would like to split the interview in two parts. On one hand I would like to talk to you about your music and your art/shows but also the personal side of it. Emilie: I’m happy to talk to you about anything. EveScene: The reason why we created Ugly Scene is the idea of music, of course, but also collecting information and resources for people with disorders and addictions. Some people do not realize that they have it. Emilie: I didn’t for a long time and was misdiagnosed before. So you have to go through a lot of doctors to even get a correct answer. One doctor does not know everything. How would that be incorporated into the magazine? EveScene: The final goal is to have that information to the side along with interviews with different artists. Every artist that I interview we ask about addiction. If someone saw, for instance, that you are talking about bi-polar it might encourage others to get help. Emilie: Yes. That would be amazing. I have never seen anything like that. It’s pretty interesting because most musicians or anyone remotely in the public eye if they are not crazy in some way they are addicted to something. So I get the other side. I have no addictions whatsoever but I got that. Everybody has something and it kind of is appropriate in any entertainment magazine that we talk about these things. EveScene: Music in my case has helped me a lot. Emilie: I think that anything that you can create an outlet is a form of therapy. Probably if you even are not crazy or on drugs or whatever having that outlet can help in any case. EveScene: Let’s talk about your music. Emilie: Let’s warm up with some musical sparkly goodness. EveScene: How about talking about your new album that you posted on Twitter. Emilie: That’s what is fun because Twitter exists I can start my own rumors. It’s perfect because now artists don’t have to do a press release. They can start these little things and talk and all of the sudden it’s out there. I’ve never even thought about that before but that is what Twitter is. The rumor mill that you can start yourself. I started this rumor that a new record is being made and it is. It’s Fight Like a Girl. They call it FLAG for short which is really cute and perfect because I didn’t even think about that. Yes raising the Flag for that. That’s the next chapter in the music and in the show. Chapter two takes you deeper into the story of the Asylum book which is what’s really important here is that story. What we do is try to represent that story. It’s the next part and it represents the part in the book where shit really starts to go down and it gets real. It’s where the event called the Tea Party Masker happens where it’s about the point where the girls finally figure out how they can break through the barricades, prison walls, and what they do then. Which is, of course, they go after the doctors with their own tools. That’s when the war happens to take back your space. That’s what’s coming next and it’s going to be Epic film soundtrack style that’s violent, brutal, beautiful and intense fun. A little more brutal from what we have had before but just as lush and beautiful. EveScene: You mix everything into the theatrical aspect of the show. How do you develop the shows? Are the shows therapeutic? For you or as a group? Emilie: The difference is that when I make a record or just write the music on my own that’s all about me. There I’m not thinking about anybody else and it’s what I need to create to get out or get in and express. That’s when it’s completely selfish. Everything changes when we switch over to the stage world and that becomes theater land and not a rock show. It’s a theater piece, it’s an experience or it’s going clearly like more and more in the direction of musical and that’s obviously what’s coming. Once we take it to the stage then it’s no longer selfish and it’s about all of us equally. That’s brilliant. I’ve never thought of it as group therapy. I guess I have but have never put that term to it. Thank you. It definitely is in a really healthy excellent way of not even has to be about taking sick people and healing them in a literal therapy way. It can just be about taking a person of any sort and can be as simple as bringing them this enjoyment or taking someone who has some serious problems and maybe reminding them while having a sexy sparkling fun time in one small way relying on your individuality to carry you through crazy times or not paying attention to a bunch of doctors who tell you that you are insane just because you do certain things doesn’t necessary mean that you are crazy. Because you are bi-polar doesn’t mean that you are crazy. Crazy is a whole different term and it also doesn’t make you a bad person, it doesn’t make you flawed and it shouldn’t get in the way of a lot of things in your life. I think that’s a hang up that I’ve always had that probably a lot of people do is that all of this stuff affects essentially who you are and what makes you less or makes you a genetically flawed person. I know that kind of is taking it onto the second part of the interview so we’ll just stop that but I think the group therapy aspect definitely is real but what it’s really for is creating unity and so that goal that I have every night that I perform is to bring people of all different kinds together. When you see the show it’s actually shocking the age differences. There is absolutely as many boys as girls now and that happened a little while ago where it just completely evened out. Then you have the different walks of life. You have the goth kids that dress to the nines then you got people making their own costumes and people making muffins and the metal heads. Then you’ve got completely normal looking people that you are like where the hell did you come from and how did you know about this. That’s even the most beautiful because I just go Wow something is happening when that guy knows to come here because we are not just preaching to the converted anymore. It’s actually getting out and it’s about getting all these people together in a situation where for that night you don’t apologize for anything. That’s one place where this little sanctuary that we are creating this is our asylum which the word means a sanctuary a place to go to be safe and that isn’t how it really is in the outside world. An asylum is a nuthouse where you go to be tortured back in the day and now. It really hasn’t changed. It’s all about making it what it was supposed to be and about for right now, everybody is ok. All those things you have in your head and we have a huge and growing gay and lesbian audience that they have been there since the beginning but now it’s becoming more. We see more married gay couples coming to the show and ladies that bring their wives that are completely out and proud of this and are coming to celebrate this with us. I am so proud of everybody that comes out and here is where everyone can stand next to each other. All for the cause of just sharing this experience, the beauty of this thing that we’re trying to give them and realizing that for this moment the whole thing that makes this work is that you are all so different and you are also the same. That’s how we are as well so it’s the unity of everything that makes it work. I guess that is the group therapy. EveScene: Could you elaborate about dropping out of music school because it sounds very interesting? Emilie: It’s pretty simple actually. When I went to music conservatory, which is essentially college, it was in the top for music conservatories for classical music. I became disillusioned really quickly when I had hoped it would be all about the music and it turned out that it really was about the appearance and all of that. Which people think that I made it about the appearance now but they made it about the appearance first. When my appearance didn’t fit with what they thought it had to be. Essentially it means that I have been always a little bit showy and I was happy to wear things without sleeves and things that are in our modern world that you think what the fuck is the big deal? There it is about being intensely conservative and intensely modest. Basically their goal is and I was told many times literally you are not an individual and you are a vessel for the music of this dead person. In all respect to the dead person I don’t think that is what they would want. I think they would want this to be created and re-created every time it’s played by anyone in an individual way by an individual soul. I thought that it was all about not wanting to distract the audience by your own personality or image or anything. I thought that really was insulting to an audience to say that they are so easily distracted or that they couldn’t possibly focus on more than one thing at a time. I believe in an audience far more than that and it was at that point that their critique of me became entirely about my behavior, visual and all these external things and not about the music. When I said how’s the playing they said we have nothing to say about that. They called my mother and complained about my behavior and about how I looked. It wasn’t like I was behaving badly it’s just that I was adamant about having a personality and that was very much frowned upon. They thought this was going to get worse and worse and worse and if you are going to be a world class soloist who is on podiums all over the place professionally then you are going to really have to tone it down. At that time in my life I was probably fifteen and sixteen when that really started to get bad and the disagreements started happening to where I foresaw that this was going to get worse and I will never be comfortable in this world. I will make classical music forever because it’s still my favorite thing to do but I don’t care what it’s filed under in a record store. I don’t care if it’s sold to the hard core classical audience or the kids coming dressed up to the show that just end up loving it and not even knowing that they are not supposed to like it. That this is something your grandparents are supposed to like and they don’t know that. All they know is that it’s by a person that they like and that it sounds pretty and that it’s exciting to them and that’s the point. I think letting go of all the trappings of what this is supposed to be and just making music is what I wanted and what I couldn’t have. I started to get disgusted with the whole classical world and how incredibly conservative it is. I am not conservative and it represents everything that I don’t agree with. I wanted to disassociate from that to basically start my own genre to where I didn’t even have to please those people. I don’t ever care to have publicity by classical magazines. If that happened then lovely but I don’t care anymore. I don’t care who covers what and I don’t care who listens. All that matters to me is that I get to do this and I don’t care what it’s called. For our VIP meet and greets sessions I do a fully baroque classical recital for them and that’s the best part of my day and I don’t think one of them is distracted from the music by the way that I look. That is having some faith in your audience that they can handle this. My real issue was always I wanted to represent what I thought was amazing in the music by complimenting it by a visual appearance. If something was very sensual then I want to look beautiful. I really wanted to create a full package and I should have know at the time that I was meant to be a complete entertainer. It’s supposed to be about the visual and all these sensory experiences. That’s why we had to create something like that where it’s about how we sing, how we sound, how we talk, how we look, how we smell, if we are close enough and all of that. It should be about everything and it just wasn’t enough. So that’s what happened and once the fighting with my teachers started it just wasn’t worth it anymore. There are some times when visual appearance is totally not a bad thing to focus on. It’s really a beautiful thing and we all have one and we all should be proud of it. Eve’s Scene: Thank you for your time. It was lovely to speak with you and we love what you do and what you represent. Check out her web site: For more links go to our Band/Gallery page.

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